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There is no medicine like hope, no incentive so great, and no tonic so powerful as expectation of something better tomorrow.
-Orison Swett Marden

Hope.

They always tell you to keep your head up after something bad happens. Then you sit and think to yourself that it’s easier said than done. You’re told that time heals all wounds but you believe that nothing in the world could make “this” better. So what do you do?

You have to hold onto hope that things are going to be okay. Even in the face of sadness, anger, and when you think that there is no way you can go on, you have to have some glimmer of hope.

How?

Zombieland Rule #32. “Enjoy the little things”. Find the small things that make you forget, the things that make you smile, something that will take your mind off your sadness even for a moment. Some people music music and will steer away from any songs that will remind them of how they feel/their situation. This is something I like to do, personally.

Over the past few months no matter how hard things felt I knew that I had to find a way to fight, even when I didn’t want to. Even now I look back and wonder what if, but I know I can’t change it. As hard as it might be I gotta try to look towards a better future. I have to believe it’s possible.

Hope.

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14th
November

"Oh life; it’s waiting for you. It’s all messed up bet we’re alive. Oh life; it’s waiting for you. But it’s all fucked up we’ll survive, we’ll survive."

-Raine Maida of Our Lady Peace “Life”
To say things haven’t been easy over the past few months, well, would be an understatement. There are so many things I could sit here and think back on but why do that? I’ve wrote it out a dozen times now, discussed it, but it doesn’t help. The memories won’t go away and they feel like they won’t ever fade. Instead I need to make my life what I want it to be, or at least try to.

"Oh life; it’s waiting for you. It’s all messed up bet we’re alive. Oh life; it’s waiting for you. But it’s all fucked up we’ll survive, we’ll survive."

-Raine Maida of Our Lady Peace “Life”

To say things haven’t been easy over the past few months, well, would be an understatement. There are so many things I could sit here and think back on but why do that? I’ve wrote it out a dozen times now, discussed it, but it doesn’t help. The memories won’t go away and they feel like they won’t ever fade. Instead I need to make my life what I want it to be, or at least try to.

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19th
June
Oh yeah, one of the coolest things?
I get to go here on Wednesday! New York Mets Vs. Oakland A’s. From  what I hear R.A. is the probable pitcher and that makes me smile. I  can’t wait to see the knuckleball from the 3rd baseline. They’re going  to be great seats and a ton of pictures from it I’m sure. Maybe I’ll  have to make a new blog with just my stuff from New York if I want to  keep my posts set up how I have it at two at a time on the same topic.
LET’S GO METS!

Oh yeah, one of the coolest things?

I get to go here on Wednesday! New York Mets Vs. Oakland A’s. From what I hear R.A. is the probable pitcher and that makes me smile. I can’t wait to see the knuckleball from the 3rd baseline. They’re going to be great seats and a ton of pictures from it I’m sure. Maybe I’ll have to make a new blog with just my stuff from New York if I want to keep my posts set up how I have it at two at a time on the same topic.

LET’S GO METS!

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Yeah I know it’s pretty much been over-played to the point that people dread when it comes on, especially the one person I know who lives in New York, but whenever I hear this song I just can’t wait to be there. For a year now I’ve had this itch to be in NYC and to experience even just a piece of it’s life.

I was told that NYC will be nothing that I can even imagine it being. My boss told me that if I feel like I could live there now and be apart of the energy that it gives, then it will magnify ten-fold when I go to leave. I can think of a hundred things that I want to do and know that I won’t have time to even dent it.

The three days I’m there won’t nearly be enough. I do know that I’ll be hitting up a simple dinner and movie or something on Tuesday, nothing too crazy. Then it begins Wednesday and Thursday. Mets game, Bronx Zoo, a wax museum. I have to hit up central park somehow, times square. I would love to see ground zero, as an American. The shuttle driver at work gave me a list, let’s see if I can do some of them.

I can’t wait to be in that concrete jungle where dreams are made of, for so many reasons. 

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"Always hold onto Smallville.” -Jonathan Kent

He was speaking to all of us too. Never forget what Smallville meant. It taught you to believe in yourself, that you can do anything, and to always have faith.

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This is a mixture of notes from last night and a re-watching of it tonight.

"And now… the series finale of Smallville" -Tom Welling

Thanks Tom, way to get the eyes to water right at the beginning.

Chole reading a comic to her son 7 years later a comic booked called Smallville. A set of green bow and sticky arrows. Her and Oliver’s son?

And the DeathStar is on fire and is headed directly for Earth. One last challenge.

"Somebody -save- me." -Remy Zero

One last opening, one last time to airdrum with the song. I was kind of expecting a different opening, something longer since it was the last one.

I love how Clark isn’t backing down about the wedding, playing off her breaking it off last week pretty well. Oh come on Lois, nothing is impossible with love, right?

I remember when Clark was always the one trying to back off so he didn’t get someone tangled up in his life, he really loves Lois.

"It’s the best decision I don’t remember making." -Oliver Queen

=) I love it. And as they walk by the holy water it turns black. Dun dun dun.

Next scene: The DeathStar crosses the moon.

Martha Kent seems pretty upset as she looks around, and she is. She didn’t want Clark to give up the farm, his past. I love seeing a deep scene like this between the two of them. He’s losing his focus of what made him the man he is today, his past. Clark believes he is moving forward but Martha says he can move forward without letting go. So true.

"You don’t have to let go of the past to move on." -Martha Kent

"Yes you do." -Clark Kent

It’s a debate within itself. Seeing Jonathan Kent there as Clark walks by made my heart skip. Mom and Pop Kent tearing up got to me.

Chole tries to talk Lois into getting married.

"He can’t listen all the time Lois, he’s not god… He’s a man, some times he needs to not listen. He needs to rest, to love, to laugh. " -Chole Sullivan

And Chole breaks out Clark’s vows and they are all over Tumblr so I won’t post them all but they sure are amazing.

"When you believe in someone it’s not for a minute or just for now, it’s forever." -Clark Kent

Wow. Choked up much. Lois admits she’s an idiot as everyone has a giant lump in their throat.

Tess is locked out of WatchTower, everything is down after Oliver shut everything down? Manhunter’s camera is still up and here comes the DeathStar, Apokolips. Oliver is in brainwash mode and talks to Darkseid’s followers. They give Oliver a ring made with gold kryptonite, which will take all of Clark’s powers away for good.

Clark takes to the graveyard and we get more Jonathan time. I love it. Clark is struggling with his decisions and Jonathan tries to help, but Clark can’t here him. Clark thinks he needs to stand on his own. Oliver swoops in to try and cheer Clark up but doesn’t do a very good job. Clark still believes that he needs to let go.

Lois is in her wedding dress because the wedding is back on. Clark was ready to tell her she was right. Clark is still trying to break it off easy, telling her she sees things he doesn’t. Lois talks about what her parents would be saying because the people you love are always with you. Lois asks what he meant about stars not aligning as Clark reads her vows.

"You’re my best friend, you’re my home, and you’re my true love. And I am yours and will be forever." -Lois Lane

Lois gets worried that Clark is gone and we all get super choked up again. He tells her that he’ll see her at the chapel. And then we all take a deep breath as Tess is getting into a chase trying to relay a message. She’s held up at gun point and taken away.

It’s time for a wedding. Remember the last wedding Smallville had? Jimmy and Chole and lots of people got hurt. Martha sits in the front as Olie and Chole come down. Lois looks so beautiful but starts to get nervous standing by herself, looking around. Clark takes her hand and they walk together. We all tear up as we see Clark look over and he sees both his mom and dad standing there.

"Everything okay, Smallville?" -Lois Lane

"Perfect. It’s perfect." -Clark Kent

We get a mix of the two vows as the wedding continues. Oliver goes to hand Lois the gold krptonite ring and Chole notices the odd color/spark it seems to give. It starts to glow as it gets close to Clark and Chole knows what’s up. She knocks it out of their Lois’ hand and Oliver has been taken over, Clark tells everyone to leave.

Dark!Oliver shoves Lois and here comes Clark speeding in (who had been tossed out a window) and makes the save! Oliver and Clark fight but Clark won’t attack, he believes in the good in Olie’s heart. Clark refuses to give up, saying they have to save the world together. Oliver beats the darkness inside him and the mark leaves his head.

But everything is not okay. Apokolips can be seen now and starts to cover the sun. Chole needs to go to Star City to get a team together and leaves, kissing Oliver as we get explosions from the sky. Clark sees Jonathan again outside and follows him to the loft in the barn. Clark knows he made a mistake trying to let go of his past. Jonathan says that Clark needs Jor-el. Martha comes in and tells Clark to not doubt himself. It was so nice to see all three Kents together again. Jonathan tells Clark it’s time. Clark superspeeds to save the day!

Tess is awake and Lionel is there and is super creepy. Lionel says he believes Clark can save the day? Trying to trick Tess maybe? Telling Tess it’s time to become the Luthor she’s meant to be, talking about the clones. Saying certain pieces were perfect. Lex grafted the best parts and made a good body but he’s missing a heart. Lionel wants to take Tess’ heart as we get a shot of Lex’s body on a table.

Clark gets some clues to where Tess is and gets a video message off her phone that wasn’t sent. Tess is restrained and gets prep’ed. Kick ass Tess! BAM! Tess shoots Lionel right through the heart! Lionel crawls to Lex’s body and here comes Darkseid, offering him help. Lionel only wants Lex safe. Darkseid rips out Lionel’s heart and the next scene is Lex waking up. He’s back!

Shout out to the “Wall of Weird” as Clark and Lois talk in the Daily Planet. The omega markings are pulling Apokolips to Earth. Clark looks around and most of the people in the room have a mark. The Luthor mansion is where Lex had been the whole time! Lois finds a way onto Airforce One.

"Hello, Clark. Can’t say I love what you’ve done with the place. " -Lex Luthor

"…Lex." -Clark Kent

"You still say it the same way. Astonishment, mixed with a hint of dread yet… with a hopeful finish." -Lex Luthor

I love everything about this scene. I’m so glad that Rosenbaum came back for this.

"We have a destiny together, Clark, only on different sides" -Lex Luthor

"I’ll always be there to stop you. Always" -Clark Kent

"Oh, I’m counting on it. Our story hasn’t been written yet, Kal-el. And every villain is only as great as his hero." -Lex Luthor

Oh. My. God. Lex agrees with Clark that Clark Kent can’t save the world, but they both know who can.

Here comes Oliver and starts looking for where Darkseid’s followers and grabs the Green Arron gear. Go get ‘em Olie.

"I got this friend. Cool leather jacket, blurs faster than a speeding bullet. He’s pretty good at impossible." -Oliver Queen

Oliver takes some… light arrows… and kills the three followers. Lois tries to get to the back to see someone on Airforce One, wanting to get a message out about the heroes. The Secretary of State already knows that the “meteor” won’t explode, shitty government types. Lois gets them time, hurry up Blur. You only have five minutes.

"This is exactly the time for my hero." -Lois Lane

Elsewhere, Clark grabs the crystal he took from the fortress to turn Jor-el back on but someone lurks. Darkseid!Lionel!Zombie!

"It might be easier to hate, but it’s stronger to love." -Clark Kent

Darkseid tosses Clark and he stops midair.

"You have always had the power within you, my son." -Jor-el

We get an amazing montage on Clark and Smallville over the past decade. From saving Lex in the pilot, Clark saving Lana from the tornado, saving the little kid and shielding him from the falling rock and many other saves.

"These were my trials." -Clark Kent

"You are ready. Seize your destiny." -Jor-el

CLARK IS FLYING! I got chills as he turned and flew into Darkseid.

Tess and Lex square off at LuthorCorp and he stabs her. Poor Tess.

"You know I’m actually saving you." -Lex Luthor

"From what?" -Tess Mercer

"From turning into me." -Lex Luthor

"It’s too late. Clark already did that." -Tess Mercer

She just used some chemical to wipe Lex’s memories totally. Oh snap. We get a Lex montage as the memories vanish.

Clark speeds into the fortress and Jor-el is back and he’s proud of Clark. The suit raises from the ground as we get fanfare. And there’s Jonathan holding the suit behind Clark.

"Always hold onto Smallville." -Jonathan Kent

Jonathan hands Clark the suit and I don’t know what to feel. Excited, frog in my throat from that line alone. Clark gets ready and bursts out of the top of the fortress and he’s in the suit! Flying!

Apokolips is starting to break atmo and Airforce One starts to go down as everyone inside is getting tossed around. Lois sees Clark swoop in and ups right the plane. He flies next to the window and both are smiling. She grabs the camera and starts to report and the President is there.

Olie runs into the crowd in town and above them is Clark flying by. Oliver believes. Apokolips starts to get pushed away! The Omegas start to leave people as the crowd goes wild. We see Clark floating in space, watching over Earth.

"And that was the day that the boy turned into Superman." -Chole Sullivan

Chole finishes reading to her son.

We get Jimmy telling Lois something is a bad idea. And in 2018, Lex becomes president. Clark and Lois bump into each other.

"Oh, I’m sorry Ms. Lane. Let me just… uh.. I was…" -Clark Kent

"Can it Clark, no ones paying any attention." -Lois Lane

"Yes Ms. Lane." -Clark Kent

"That’s so hot." -Lois Lane

Haha. They have rings and are trying to get married, again, 7 years later. But, there is a bomb to stop first. Clark heads to the rooftop. SUPERMAN MUSIC! He tosses the glasses, loosens the necktie, and rips the shirt! The Superman suit present and ready!

And… we’re done…

The ride is over. Thank you so much Smallville.

I will watch this episode along so many times over the years and always remember what this show meant to me. I know this was a long post, most people probably aren’t reading and that’s fine. For anyone that does, thank you for sharing this journey with me. There was so much I left unsaid because you can’t find the words to put your emotions into.

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14th
May
I will hate not seeing this logo twenty-some-odd weeks of my year.
For the past decade I’ve had Smallville and it’s characters in my life. I was never real big into comic books and didn’t know a lot of the story of Superman. Sure, I had seen the movies when I was a kid and loved them. I knew who Superman was and where he came from, what he could do but I didn’t know his stories. So going into Smallville I wasn’t expecting anything.
I never once thought that Clark Kent would put on a cape, fly, or even actually be Superman. I was totally content on watching the story of Clark Kent, played by Tom Welling, grow up and face not only the trials of having to grow into a destiny of a hero but of a teenager’s life.
I knew that he and Lana Lang didn’t end up together because I knew that it was Lois and Clark but I still wanted to see what happened. Hell, the background on my laptop was a screencap from season 8 episode 13 [Power] that I made. It had Lana and Clark kissing on the top of the Daily Planet. Still, knowing that they didn’t end up together I loved seeing it all.
I knew some things were done weird (Jimmy getting killed but he’s there in the future so it ends up really being his brother that lives the life of Jimmy) but I was okay with it. Smallville got a lot of grief over the years for losing it’s direction and not being very good but I stuck it out. Just like any series there are episodes that I really love and those that I don’t.
There are things I would have loved to have seen, sure, I think that’s with every show out there. Yet, I’m very content; ney, very happy with everything that I did see. I’m so glad that I got to see an actual end to the series rather than it being cancelled. The could have done more seasons but I think it ended perfectly. 
I watched the series finale and I can admit that it was an emotional roller coaster. We saw action, I gasped, I cheered, I had the chills and I teared up. Tomorrow I’ll be re-watching the finale and doing some sort of post about it (I have notes from watching it the first time as well, haha). I am happy to say I’ve seen every episode of Smallville and some at least three or four times. There will never be a show that I’ll dedicate myself to as I did with this one.
Thank you Smallville for an amazing trip. This isn’t goodbye, this is until I decide to pop one of the DVDs into the player and watch you and relive the memories.

"Always hold onto Smallville.” -Jonathan Kent [Series finale]

I will Mr. Kent.

I will hate not seeing this logo twenty-some-odd weeks of my year.

For the past decade I’ve had Smallville and it’s characters in my life. I was never real big into comic books and didn’t know a lot of the story of Superman. Sure, I had seen the movies when I was a kid and loved them. I knew who Superman was and where he came from, what he could do but I didn’t know his stories. So going into Smallville I wasn’t expecting anything.

I never once thought that Clark Kent would put on a cape, fly, or even actually be Superman. I was totally content on watching the story of Clark Kent, played by Tom Welling, grow up and face not only the trials of having to grow into a destiny of a hero but of a teenager’s life.

I knew that he and Lana Lang didn’t end up together because I knew that it was Lois and Clark but I still wanted to see what happened. Hell, the background on my laptop was a screencap from season 8 episode 13 [Power] that I made. It had Lana and Clark kissing on the top of the Daily Planet. Still, knowing that they didn’t end up together I loved seeing it all.

I knew some things were done weird (Jimmy getting killed but he’s there in the future so it ends up really being his brother that lives the life of Jimmy) but I was okay with it. Smallville got a lot of grief over the years for losing it’s direction and not being very good but I stuck it out. Just like any series there are episodes that I really love and those that I don’t.

There are things I would have loved to have seen, sure, I think that’s with every show out there. Yet, I’m very content; ney, very happy with everything that I did see. I’m so glad that I got to see an actual end to the series rather than it being cancelled. The could have done more seasons but I think it ended perfectly. 

I watched the series finale and I can admit that it was an emotional roller coaster. We saw action, I gasped, I cheered, I had the chills and I teared up. Tomorrow I’ll be re-watching the finale and doing some sort of post about it (I have notes from watching it the first time as well, haha). I am happy to say I’ve seen every episode of Smallville and some at least three or four times. There will never be a show that I’ll dedicate myself to as I did with this one.

Thank you Smallville for an amazing trip. This isn’t goodbye, this is until I decide to pop one of the DVDs into the player and watch you and relive the memories.

"Always hold onto Smallville.” -Jonathan Kent [Series finale]

I will Mr. Kent.

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14th
May
It took over ten years to get to this point but it was well worth the trip. Thank you Tom, everyone. Thank you for giving me a smile so many times over the past decade. I will never love a show like I love Smallville.

It took over ten years to get to this point but it was well worth the trip. Thank you Tom, everyone. Thank you for giving me a smile so many times over the past decade. I will never love a show like I love Smallville.

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05th
May
Every man should have a suit, it’s just a fact of life. It is acceptable to wear a suit for pretty much everything. I’ve worn suits to hockey games, just to go out, and for fun. 
So, SUIT UP! It’ll be legen -wait for it- dary.

Every man should have a suit, it’s just a fact of life. It is acceptable to wear a suit for pretty much everything. I’ve worn suits to hockey games, just to go out, and for fun. 

So, SUIT UP! It’ll be legen -wait for it- dary.

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